RIP Percy

Thursday 3 May 2018 was shaping up to be an OK day. During the previous few days, a few things had clicked for me in how to improve my future health (both physically and mentally) and that morning I’d done a 2.7 mile (4.35km) walk with Baldrick. I had spent an hour in the kitchen preparing a honeyed beef & date dish to cook in the slower cooker (sadly it wasn’t as good I’d hoped) and upon entering my living room, my mobile phone was ringing.  Continue reading “RIP Percy”

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On the up?

The start to 2018 has found me really struggling with my depression and anxiety and I have struggled to keep my mood stable; however, I think my struggles could be about to get a little easier.

Over the years of living with both depression and anxiety, I have gain a little understanding into when I am heading into a depressive episode and when I’m possibly leaving one as I have behaviours which happen and I call them my mile markers. Continue reading “On the up?”

Decluttering Challenge 2018 – Days 26 – 32 (Final Day)

I’m really feeling slightly negative about this year’s decluttering challenge and I think it’s due to settling my expectations too high.

My home was really disorganised and cluttered when I did the challenge during Lent 2017 and I was totally motivated each day to tackle the house. Each day that passed helped me become more motivated for the next day and I could really notice a change in my mood and mental health as I tackled the clutter. At the end of the challenge on Easter Sunday I felt like a huge weight had been lifted because the house was sorted and clean and I had less stuff in my life. Even though I didn’t do any specific emotional decluttering, I did feel a lot calmer and my mood was more stable.

However, this year’s challenge feels like a total struggle and I’m struggling to get motivated. Continue reading “Decluttering Challenge 2018 – Days 26 – 32 (Final Day)”

Decluttering Challenge 2018 – Days 22 – 25

Another 4 days of the decluttering challenge have passed and been a tad more productive than the previous few days so I’m a little happier about my progress.

I turned a piece of counted cross stitch into a pin cushion for my mother and a cushion for my mother in law for Mother’s Day (which was today here in the UK). I also got my mother in law’s birthday gift made for her birthday next week which means 3 more projects have been ticked off my “to do” list.

I managed to do some more of my workbooks and dealt with some more of my emotional clutter and 2 small bags of bits have left the house.

The ground has been too frozen to get our and do any gardening.

I’ve picked up my new reading glasses which means I can crack on with a cross stitch project I still hope to finish for Easter. It also means a huge decrease in my migraines.

I seriously don’t think I will hit any of my targets but that’s OK as I’ve done and will keep doing my best to reach them.

Anyway my running total now is:

13 bags cleared out (either rubbish or donation items for charity) – 27 to go

20 hours of emotional decluttering; 20 to go

5 project complete and removed from my “to do” list; 15 to go

Decluttering Challenge 2018 – Days 9 – 21

Sadly this year’s challenge isn’t going at all well but I am refusing to feel bad about it as I am doing my best and that’s all anyone can ask.

Due to the weather no gardening has been done and I think my target of 40 hours may be out of the window. The ground has either been too hard to dig or too wet and over the weekend, the garden was hidden under a decent amount of snow. Continue reading “Decluttering Challenge 2018 – Days 9 – 21”

Is It Just Me?

I often wonder whether the thoughts which run through my head due to my clinical depression are the same thoughts other depression sufferers have or is it just me?

The thoughts I’m referring to are those thoughts which occur when I react to something in a different way to others around me and the thoughts which arise because I get so incredibly tired of explaining myself time and time again to those in my life who claim to care for me! Continue reading “Is It Just Me?”